For years I thought I would only ever want to be a nomad in constant motion, not tied to any one place. I even had grand plans to live out of a VW bus and cruise my way south on the 101 playing music to pay my way.
That plan didn’t pan out but I did leave for school and I have moved roughly six times in the past four years. I will be moving again in a month. I haven’t been living out of a bus but I also haven’t been tied to any one place. It’s exciting being so free but over time it has made me feel unsettled. I’ve realized that what I’ve wanted is one place to call home. Somewhere constant and unchanging.
The only constant in my safe-to-say impermanent life is change. We’re becoming good friends.
My first steps into this crazy changing adult life freaked me out and I wanted to grab hold of every single solid part of life I could, and without fail, every one of those things decided to change! Life is always going to change and that’s just how it is. Change is becoming familiar and comfortable for me and I almost get uneasy when things stay the same for long.
Instead of staying freaked out, I’ve learned to embrace change because it’s actually pretty awesome and here’s why.
Change lets us redefine ourselves every single day. If something isn’t working for you, your soul isn’t connecting with your life, whatever it may be, it doesn’t have to be permanent. You can embrace change and move things in a direction you like.
In fact, when we know things will be changing, we can drive the change–steer it where we want. That is awesome.
In five years, I could be happily married with babies or living by the Alps making music, or flying planes. I don’t know. Some people have more solid plans than I do but what I do know is that my life probably won’t be what I expect now. Not to mention, for right now, I don’t think a constant and unchanging home is what I need. I should be embracing change and finding what makes my soul happy.
So, Hooray for change–Yay for the constant inconstant!
What do you think about change? Do you love it or hate it and why?